Falling in Love is...

Falling in love is my title I felt that I needed to talk about this love thing since my Mexican male friend was supposedly going to take me out on a date on Tuesday night and ending up not showing. He left me wondering, why is it so hard to fall in love with someone that I might have feelings for though. Okay, maybe he was very tried and fall asleep early. That whole time we were supposes to go out, maybe he did not want to go out, or forgot. Me still wondering at the time, since he did not call me, text me back telling me what had happen to him. The next day comes and I near from him. He told me he was very tried and took a nap and did not wake up till he next morning for school. Then we rescheduled another date together and that day came, and he told me he was tried again so I just said, "forget it I'm done with me and you dating and going out", and never called or texted him again. My heart dropped to he floor because I thought we had a connection but I realize it was just a joke to him.

For me, falling in love is hard because when i meet a nice guy they turn out to be all the same, wanting that one thing, ladies you know what I'm talking about. I had my share of guys but they turned out to be all the same "hell", but I started to realize that in my friends relationships, they basically have the perfect man in their life's and are happier then me. I always wonder why is that? Yes ladies, I read the books about "How To Keep Your Man In Check", and the articles " How Can You Make Your Man Happy in the Relationship." Their millions of books at the bookstore and articles on the Internet but which one works for me? Okay let me think... mmmmm. None work for me and I have not read them all but I figured if the book about " How To Keep Your Man On Check", did not work on my past relationships soon I figured that non work for me. I don't know why this is? To the women who wrote these books and articles about their relationships, I have one thing to say, I'm so jealous.

Falling in love is harder then riding a bicycle, cause the men I meet only want that non-educated, jobless, and easy female. Example: hoes, sluts, whores, and dumb ass girls. I have not might a man that wants a educated, has a future, a career woman, romantic female like myself. While, I'm an African American woman that wants African American male as a partner and my chances of that are slim to none, I believe. Because I'm starting to date outside my race which is okay but I find the same motile on this end. I'm not saying that I don't want to get married to a person outside my race I just prefer getting married to my own race, because I feel that I'll be more comfortable. Don't get me wrong ladies I'm so attracted to the thugs and gang banners. The question is are they men that I want to get involved with?